My entire conversion and the subsequent conversion of my husband, Tim (then boyfriend) is due to the intercession and help of Our Blessed Mother! She is the reason I am here today! She is the humble servant who went to her Son and pleaded my case before Him. She is my Most Merciful Mother. She saw good in me when I didn't see it in myself and she must have lifted me up and opened me to grace a million times over. My (earthly) mother is a dedicated pray - er of the rosary. Whenever I come to her with some trouble or concern of mine her response is always the same. "Are you praying the rosary?" Sadly, most often my response is something like "Well, not very much." It's a scandal in the circles I run in to admit that you don't regularly pray the rosary. Rightfully so I believe. You'd think that considering all that this Woman has done for me and my family I would take on the simple task of praying the rosary. It only takes 20 minutes. Why don't I make the commitment and stick to it? Laziness? Pride? Lack of self discipline? All of the above. The rosary in this house is often attempted, rarely finished. We will get to the third Hail Mary of the second decade and someone or something will inevitably interrupt us. I should pray it by myself at least then you say. Right. I'm 33 years old and the mother of 5 and still I lack enough self discipline to sit down and be still and quietly pray for 20 minutes! What's wrong with me? Now, I don't neglect prayer. I pray. Often I tearfully pray. I call out to my Jesus and speak to Him. I speak to My Mother and tell her how much I love her. I sometimes can get so filled by the Holy Spirit that I actually feel like I will explode! I am awestruck, emotional, and lifted up very high in times of prayer. But I just can't seem to conform to the rosary. I think he ( the guy who I won't speak his name) helps to keep it that way. I'm sure "he" wants me to continue to avoid the rosary. Considering that it is considered the most powerful prayer there is only second to the Holy Mass itself!, I know why "he" likes it that I don't and my family doesn't pray it enough. Padre Pio is said to have called his rosary "his weapon". He'd say "go! get me my weapon!" Indicating that he wanted his rosary so that he could pray. I, myself have told my kids that with each Our Father and each Hail Mary they help to create a chain that binds up "him" and weaken "him". Fr. Corapi, Bishop Sheen, JPII, and many others whom I love and respect ALL speak of the importance and power of the rosary. I MUST commit to it again this month of May. I will try to pray it daily. I owe her - My Queen that much. Oh, and the things that she can, and will do with those prayers! She is truly a good and merciful Mother to us! If only we would use her simple prayer, her rosary, to ask for her help. No one has the ear of the Son like His Mother! Mary - I love you.
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